This is going to be a life recount of sorts, so do not read if you're going to be bored.
I went over to the boyfriend's house in the evening to collect the New Year Goodies his mother prepared for my family. He wasn't at home since he was working and I was prepared for that. What I wasn't prepared for was seeing his babysitter at his place too... It was my first time meeting her and she seems genuinely nice and really beautiful. I like her but she also triggered off a lot of my memories.
The moment I saw her I felt so choked up with emotions that I had to leave his house almost immediately. Seeing her made me miss my own babysitter so much. I've lost contact with her ever since I was 13? And I miss her. I really do. I am so envious of the boyfriend because he still gets to see his babysitter every now and then but I can't even find mine.
I've been to the estate that she used to live in and it seems like she's no longer there... It pains me so much that I cannot repay or see someone who's been so nice to me when I was young. I really really really want to see her again and repay her for all the kindness she's treated me with when I was younger.
I mean she practically watched me grow up.
It's so depressing not to know what's become of the person who used to love you, dote on you and gave her all in taking care of you. When my parents weren't there for me in the past, she was. I still remember how she used to teach me how to make fish balls out of fish paste. I still remember how she taught me so much about life. I still remember how easy childhood used to be with her around.
And I really really hope that by some stroke of luck, I will be able to see her again and repay her for all the love that she's given me in the past.
Toodles.
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