12hours to Daddy's Departure

I know this isn't like a big deal to most of you out there. But my dad is the one who's always closest to me in the family. He's the one who hugs me and tells me that everything is going to be fine even if he knows it's not going to be. He's the one who comforts me each time I get hurt by someone else. And even if he's going to come back for short periods of stay, it hurts because it's never going to be the same.

The fact that he's leaving was blocked out by my thoughts until last night when it finally dawned on me that it really is going to happen. And the amount of immense sadness I felt all of a sudden was overwhelming to say the least. And the thought that I am leaving in less than 30 hours(?) time is not exactly comforting as well since there will be no one to take care of my brother and mummy.

I am sorry but I am an extremely Family-Person. I cannot stand it when I know that there's no one to take care of my family. Sigh. ): Thank god for the boyfriend for being here for me even though I throw x 123243442 bitch-fits at him.

I cannot imagine what life will be like for the next one month... ):

Toodles.