Okay. Sorry Boyfriend. I need to blog. I was trying to sleep but then I had this nagging thought in my mind and if I don't get it out, I will never get to sleep. So I am trying to get it out now.

I was thinking...

How life is really a gambling table... Your stakes are your faith, your belief, your dreams. So in actual fact... We are all gamblers. Well, sort of.

You see...

Whenever we meet with any nonsensical situation.. Or any situation that requires for you to make a decision for that matter... You gamble your faith. You throw in stakes called your faith. This is your gambling moment. If you win this gamble, your faith for yourself doubles itself. Or maybe triple. I don't know. I think my faith likes to double itself because I like the word double. I hate the word triple.

Don't ask.

Anyway, if you lose.. Your lose your faith. You not only lose your faith... But you also lose some belief. You lose trust in yourself and you stop believing for a moment in yourself or in that situation or the people involved in that situation. Whatever. When you lose your faith, and you lose your belief, you also lose your dreams.

Because if you cannot believe in yourself anymore, I don't think you can believe your dreams either.

But of course, you don't lose everything in an instant. You win sometimes and you lose sometimes. Sometimes your faith doubles itself and sometimes you lose half of it. You can't do shit about the situation because that's just how life works.

If everyday you also win, then life go bankrupt how? Your life also become meaningless what right???

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As meaningless as my post. I can't believe I am risking boyfriend's anger with me for this post. I am going to regret my decision tomorrow morning when I wake up. Don't angry pwease pwease boyfriend. I love you.

I am going to read this post tomorrow morning and laugh at myself because I doubt it makes any sense. I type out I also feel ridiculous already what the hell.

Okay.

I have to go now before boyfriend officially gets mad at me.

GOODBYE.

Toodles.