It's been another long while. I've been severely exhausted - Both physically and emotionally... It's been a while since I had a break, been awhile since I last had any inspiration to write. Whenever I come to any pages that requires me to write, my brain immediately draws a blank.

The event that has left me anxious throughout the past 5 weeks or so has finally came to a satisfying and fulfilling close. I am glad and it feels like I've finally been able to take a large load off my shoulders. Now... There's just 4 more weeks to the end of my internship. After this ends, I will finally be able to take off the 1000kg load off my shoulders and probably take on another 10,000kg load. But that's another story for another day...

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I am currently sitting in the office, staring at the computer screen... Typing away furiously. I've been reading through my archives. It scares me a little... The way my blog posts are so driven by negativity, the way my writing style becomes more and more depressing by the day. I came to this sudden realization that my life has been so driven by negativity these days that I hardly have anything happy to really speak about.

And I also came to this realization that I haven't been treating myself well at all. I've been neglecting myself and allowing my life to revolve around the people close to me. I've been abandoning myself subconsicously and allowing myself to think otherwise. I've been selfish, not to others... But to myself.

I scare myself with all my emotional thoughts and the high level of negativity and depression I have in me. I am scared that one day all these high-strung (sealed in) emotions will one day throw me off that high cliff I've built for myself. I am scared for myself.

Toodles.