Avoidance.

You know how sometimes the world around you just seems to crumble down? This was what I was afraid of. I was afraid of being happy. Because when you really start becoming the happy girl you wish you were, you realize there's so much more flaws than you realized. And then everything starts falling and crumbling down all over again.

And the saddest thing of all?

All these sadness you're feeling... It's more often than not, your own doings. You put yourself in all these miseries. Knowing really well that you've all the cures to these pain you're feeling. You have all the antidote to the poisons you seem to love feeding yourself so much. You know you have all these. But yet, you don't use it. You give yourself all the excuses that you could probably come up with for not wanting to cure yourself.

And it's all kinda sad.

That we avoid...

Even ourselves.

Perhaps we really are our own biggest enemies.

But because we're so unwilling to cure ourselves, and yet we are in such great pain, we end up wanting the rest of the world to suffer with us. I mean why should she be happy when I am not right? This is when you start creating conflicts around you. This is when you start making the people around you sad as well.

This is when you start poisoning people as well.

And because you don't want to give yourself that antidote, you wouldn't give anyone else either.

And I guess this is why there are so many sad people in the world.

Because we are all selfish, someway or other.

Toodles.