Isn't 18 supposed to be a prime age of some sort?
Why then does it seem like I am actually getting numb to every bit of nonsense that has been happening around me?
I wish it was teenage angst and the likes of it still but trust me, everything is worse than what it seems to be.
I feel hateful and painful and exhausted at everything that's been been happening. On top of that is my never-ending school work and money woes.
How come money is always the root of all evils?
I feel so helpless because for once, there is nothing at all that I can do to improve the situation. I can only sit here and watch as everything crashes onto me. The severity of the situation has yet to dawn on me. I am sure, pretty sure that I will actually collapse when it does.
What can I do to just rewind my life to 6 years ago when life was actually life? When family was actually family... When you actually cry over mundane issues like "Why doesn't that guy like me?" and not severe money woes like "Where's my next meal going to come from?".
I wish it was only money.
But it's okay. Because I strongly believe that what doesn't kill you only serves to make you a much stronger person. I am going to believe that your history is what shapes you into becoming the resilient person that you really want to become.
So here, I will become successful.
Toodles.
2 comments:
Is it possible for you to get a part-time job? It's been hard to find any jobs in the states so I wonder if it's like that abroad as well?
I'm sorry that you've been feeling so down lately. ;___; Wish I could help you somehow.
I am teaching part time tuition now. But that only gives me $470 per month. ): It's pretty difficult to find jobs nowadays I guess.
Hhahaha. It's okay dear. (: Thanks for being so nice about it. I've had "friends" telling me I am being downright annoying and whiny.
It's so nice to have someone who doesn't really know me to be so nice to me.
Thanks so much.
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