Late Greetings

I know I said "tomorrow" but tomorrow is always an excuse to think more, to dig deeper for a friend who means something to you. I've never been one to leave my heart on my sleeve. Never been one who'd allow people to see who I was before they actually knew me. Some people think they can see through me. But truth is, I've always had back up layers of defense. It's hard to see through my heart.

But then, there are this group of people I call "true friends" that I allow into my inner world. Maybe not too deep, because at this point of time, I don't trust people as much as I'd like to. But these are the people who made it through the layers of defense and they actually know me. One of these people is Zerlina. (Hehehe, so mushy wushy right.)

When I first saw her, I thought I wasn't going to like this girl. I cannot remember why but I just thought of her as another tomboy, I think. There must be a reason why I didn't have a good impression of her. But right now, I really cannot remember why. Slowly, though, we started talking and mingling and I realized she wasn't that bad after all!

For the remaining months, while we were in the same class together, we became great friends. We talked to each other. We had fun together. And we laughed together. But then, she started having all these really huge responsibilities like choir and councillor duties. And then, we didn't hang out as much anymore. Although we were in the same class, we just didn't talk to each other as often as we did back then.

In sec 4, however, when we begun the frantic memorizing of notes and last minute studying for the 'O' Levels, I became close to Zerlina again. We started studying together and I started nagging at her and tutoring her Math. She was often over at my place, studying and talking about nonsensical stuff. We were back to the old days, where we could just talk and laugh and have fun together.

And it was fun. I still miss those days now. Where I'd nag at Zerlina non-stop to ask her to go back to doing her work. Where I'd nag at her to practice and practice again even when she didn't want to. Where we could just laugh over anything and nothing in particular. Where I could just go crying to her and she wouldn't judge me. Where she could just come crying to me, and I wouldn't judge her either.

But anyway, that's besides the point. I honestly don't know why I came up with this entry except to tell Zerlina that she's been a very important friend in my life even though we don't talk a lot nowadays. And that she'll always be a very important friend to me even though this entry is beyond mushy and I cannot stand myself anymore.

HAHA. Okay, anyway, hi NEHNEH. Back to my normal, non-nostalgic self, I LOVE YOU AND HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! See you on Saturday. If you back out on me, I will go to your house and dig you out and eat you.

>:)

Toodles.