Hi everyone,
It's now 2.16AM. I have a paper in less than 7 hours time. This means I have less than 5 hours of sleep left. I am tired, but not sleepy. Does that make sense?
I have a lot of thoughts on my mind that won't go away. A lot of puzzles I cannot seem to solve. A lot of lies I cannot get over. A lot of tears I wish would go away. A lot of people I want out of my life. A lot of jealousy, negativities and insecurities I wish could disappear. But life is as such. You can't want something and expect it to happen.
Like you can't want to be a millionaire and become one instantaneously. If life is as such, everyone would be a zillionaire and the value of money will drop drastically... Which is pointless.
Life is pointless. Certain times, I find life meaningless. You get given birth to, you grow up, you go to school, you work, you fall in love, you go through loads of shit in your life...
And then you die. And everything else goes to a waste. You could argue that your name might be left down the history... But how much would you have to do to have that happen?
And how much time would you have wasted by then?
Oh by the way. I now have 4 hours and 30 minutes of sleep left. Goodnight. Insomnia, please spare me.
Toodles.
3 comments:
I was reading a book about this. Gosh my memory is so bad ... it was something like, we go through life every day living while knowing that death is around the corner so we can't (maybe?? or was it can??) have a meaningful life because we live in fear of death but if we were to live forever, we could make the most of our time, albeit be very bored after the first hundred years or so. Oh man, I have to go back and read it. :\ I can't believe I forgot!
Hahaah. I really feel like life could be pretty meaningless at times. I wish we could choose when we wanted to diee or at which stage do we want to grow old. Lol. That will be cool.
LOL At least you don't get creepy warnings like in the Sims 3! "You should visit ____ soon because no one lives forever!" or something like that.
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