It is.
I wake up everyday feeling like I should fulfill someone else's expectations of me. I wake up everyday feeling like I have to fulfill my social obligations. I wake up everyday feeling like I owe everyone in the world. And... It's an exhausting feeling because when does it come to myself? When do I get to fulfill my own dreams?
I understand this concept now.
Don't tell me shit like if you want to do it, just go do it. Because if only it was that simple, I'd do it. There's too many people to consider, too much things to do... And so much things you cannot say.
It's so tiring to have to abandon yet another dream because of the obligations that you have to fulfill.
Perhaps this is why a dream is called a dream? Because a dream is but a dream that will not come true...
I tell everyone that it's okay. But honestly, it is less than okay. I hate abandoning dreams. Too bad life isn't all about being given a choice.
And no, I am not being angsty. Just really... really tired and helpless. So spare me from the lecture, please.
Toodles.
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